oh world, what do i want you to know this chilly day? that you're small, that each of us is small, that each of our lives and concerns is small, and to know that deeply is to have a much more accurate, peaceful, effective perspective on things. is everyone as consumed with themselves as i am? self-absorbed full of me-me-me-me in the midst of this beautiful chaordic world. chaordic equals chaos plus order in case you were wondering. i think everyone should have a globe in their house. somebody please send me a globe of my very own! it's a wonderful reminder of how small we all are, and it gives incredible perspective. like one of my favorite spiritual movies, the truman show, where he finally discovers the truth of the cocoon he's living in, and there's a whole big fat greek and non-greek world outside it. why is this "smallness" a good thing for the world to know? because our lives were never meant to revolve around any one of us, or be so limited in their scope, so non-abundant in their scale. most of us dare to taste about a sliver of what the life experience was meant to offer. why? because once we construct our little demi-god castles and courtyards, our energy for outsiders conveniently runs out. wake up, self! wake up o diva, out of thy slumber, and the truth will set you free! truth which includes open arms, open mind, open heart, open spirit, open to expansion and explosion and examination and ultimately...exhilaration. yes my weird little world is a small one, and i must find ways to connect to the bigger picture, the true truth. otherwise i have nothing left in my days to look forward to except a doomed destiny of sliverhood. i have big big things going on in life, and yes they seem consuming and impossible. but let's vow now to think bigger, higher, wider, wiser. let's not be so full of ourselves that we only taste a sliver. my little wacko world desperately needs injections of the real uncocooned, blockbuster, exhilarating world. even in a maybe war state? especially then. even in a i'd rather commit suicide state? yes yes yes. even in a hopeless black failure mood? you better believe it. i am counting on it. my world is way too self-focused. i am not supergirl, i am not the messiah. i am a misfit who dares to aspire higher...and lower.