in a world where:

thousands upon thousands of people have just died as victims of the most tumultuously catastrophic natural disaster of our time...

others have died in the ongoing war on terrorism that continues to be what i suspected it was when it began -- a no-win situation...

millions of hearts are breaking and eroding everyday as the sin'dustries (sinful industries like pornography and drug trafficking) steal, kill, and destroy us bit by bit in legally sanctioned moral decay...

millions of dollars that could be helping to heal our world are needlessly and obliviously squandered on "entertainment", like celebrity salaries and lifestyle expenses, as degradingly gross (grossly poor values, grossly poor quality, and/or both) movies and music that have no business in our cultural consciousness is continually being intravenously injected into our psychic databases for the sake of godless greed...

in a world where all these situations and more are begging for my attention and action:

i'm freaking out about what candle will be on what table in what spot on the platform for my little wedding this saturday.

perspective is the saving grace
of savage weeks like this
where truth is at risk of theft
by my petty distress

thank God i'm marrying a man
who leads me to this grace
and lifts me kicking and screaming
to perspective's higher place

i'm going to blog one more time before the big day...let's hope it's still with a voice of grace in the face of 55 million micro demands staring me down, well maybe a little less than that. slow down and love, slow down and love, slow down and love, clear your mind, clear your soul, let peace gently take control...of me, of my amazing new marriage, of all my loved ones, of this broken but beautiful world.

surreal...this time next week i will be a wife...i will have a husband...surreal...in the best of ways!

merry christmas, happy holidays, and craaaaazy kwanzaa!

mistakes and miracles overlap
upon my rainbow psychic map
and as transition waves and pleads
i need to follow where hope leads
into the strong tender arms of
my sexy godly precious love
who radiates pure holy grace
in each simple smile on his face

happy wedding to me, happy wedding to me, i will try to blog one more time before the big day!

it is so not convenient
to be a powderkeg princess
at this age and stage of the tinalife
age?
probably a little over my halfway point
but still possessing a few giggly wiggly
sweetbirds of youth
stage?
about to be wed united joined
in creatively non-traditional matrimony
to the absolute sweetest birdman of youth
but i must repeat
it is so not convenient
to be a powderkeg princess
at this transformational fork in the road

so she says 'what happens now?'
as she pingpongs between joy and sorrow
all through those sloppy drops
of involuntary emotion
in the powderkeg moments
where she looks to the sky
and in that bittersweet radiance
briefly tastes the hope

so she says 'what happens now?'
as she finally realizes
powderpuffdom is gone for good
as powderkegdom plants
its big butt on her heart's big throne
not very romantic or resourceful
or soulshiny or sugareelike
but still she looks to the sky
waiting with bono for the dawn
briefly tasting the hope

she slowly shyly shakes herself awake
and look what the sassy soul cat dragged in
a strategic little visit from an old friend
quasimodo shmasimodo
i thought you'd forgotten me
she thought he'd forgotten her
but he reached out his hand
and he touched her lips
and he preached a two second sermon

slow down and love

how do you settle a frazzled soul
how do you dismantle an annoying powderkeg
or even an atomic bomb?
you really don't even need eleven songs
although they're awesome
especially numbers four and eleven
all you need is a two second sermon
not just any but the right one
at the right time
by the right person
in the right way

slow down and love

are you nuts?

slow down and love

maybe i'm the one who's nuts

slow down and love

there's no maybe about it

slow down and love

OK